I had a meeting this afternoon that was pretty terrible. I kind of knew it was probably going to be terrible, so I tried to go in armed with documentation and a good attitude, but by this point it’s clear I have somehow become the enemy and it seems I cannot do anything right. I left feeling very disheartened and trying to find some kind of constructive comment that I can take with me to work on and improve, but I haven’t been able to find it yet. I don’t know how to respond to people in a work setting who just say things like, “I don’t believe you,” or “So and so said this,” where “this” is something I’ve never said or done.
BUT, I had a wonderful rest of my day. I had someone who left work with me that gave me a short time to just get out my feelings, and then we turned the conversation to more pleasant things. We stopped by a shop and enjoyed some treats, which I most definitely wouldn’t have done if she wasn’t there with me. It felt really nice to feel heard and cared about.
Tonight, I’m going to write her a letter telling her how much I appreciated it, send a card to someone else just because, and reflect a bit on what I can do to try to make this meeting situation thing better on my end. At this point, I can’t worry about changing this person’s mind, but I can try to make myself better!
And also, the *sun* was out today and it was just wonderful!! 🙂