Tonight I was at the gym and I was once again thinking how far I’ve “fallen.” I’ve never been an athlete or anything, but I was able to do a lot more than I can now. I had more energy, and at one point I was eating pretty well. Ugh.
I’m pretty sure I’m too young to watch one of the TV series I watch, but the newest season started. They killed off one of the main characters! Last season, two really big ones “moved” and were no longer on the show regularly (or any?). I definitely cried way too much. It reminded me of ER. I didn’t really start watching that until I was in college, and it ended when I was in grad school. I thought the end was perfect. Pretty much everyone had left, and in the last shot an ambulance came and it was work as usual.
—-> I’m always scared of change, but thinking about something like that, it makes me realize sometimes I put way too much worry and stress and energy into choosing things. It probably really doesn’t matter in the end- things will probably work out and the world will most definitely go on.
It has been a long day and I am very tired. I need to stop thinking so much when I’m this tired. It keeps me up and the cycle continues!